In exactly 50 days from now, I'll be returning home from the best experience of the life. Actually not the best experience of my life, because that´ll be the moment I start my own family, but it has been the best experience FOR my life. I CANNOT imagine who or where I would be or what would be my future if I had never came on a mission. It´s hard to explain by email the change that has taken place in me, the spiritual growth I've had, the things I've learned, that HOLY COW I dont know how I passed 19 years of my life without this solid faith in God that I have now. REALLY LIKE HOW DID I SURVIVE.
Here are a few things I´ve been pondering about this week that I would never know if I had stayed home:
When you exercise faith (in other words, when you do something a little out of your comfort zone, only because you know that God will provide the means) MIRACLES happen! Literally!! It is exactly like it says in Ether 12:12
We had a few miracles this week, one of which was a less active member, who after a few years of not coming, and after a few weeks of telling us "I will not go back to church" SHE SURPRISED US AN CAME. Its like we say here "Só Deus memso", basically that only God could work a miracle like this. So, faith+works=miracles
On the same subject, Our Heavenly Father hears and answers our prayers. Everyone. Before coming to brasil, I knew that. Of course, I had only heard in 52753 times before. But now, I KNOW it, I TESTIFY that it is true! I have felt it, and seen it, every little prayer we say. I remember one time we were walking to the bus station at 7 am, and I saw a man on his bike, obviously going to work early, and by the looks of it, a little late, with an old bike as his only transportation. As we were walking and I watched, a part of his bike flew off and broke, and he stayed stopped for about 3 minutes trying to fix it. My first thought was "oh crap, what is he going to do? He needs to get to work!" and as we walked I said a silent prayer "Heavenly Father, I dont know this man, but help him fix his bike get to work on time" and NOT EVEN 4 SECONDS LATER he was riding past us on his quickly repaired bike, going to work. I was like WHAAAAAAAAAT THAT WAS SO FAST. And then I felt so humbled by the feeling of "wow, he real heard me. Even this little random prayer about a stranger at 7 am. He heard me, I knew a was capable of helping him, and he answered" It was the smallest little moment that I had never commented with anyone, but today is a great part of my testimony. He hears us, it every little insignificant moment, He really hears
Heavenly Father always keeps his promisses when we do our part. I have seen the fulfillment of so many promises made to me in so many different moments in my life here on my mission, because I KNOW I am doing my part.
Christ is the light of the world, and serving him makes me the HAPPIEST person on the planet. HA all of my life everyone called me "smile-y" but that doesnt even compare to the constant smile I feel now, the TRUE happiness. And now that I am talking about that, ALWAYS SMILE, you don´t even know who is needing it. Last week I had two strangers come up and thank me for my smile, saying "you dont know how much I was needing that today, of all the days" And I realized, If TWO people came up and told me, imagine that people who thought it but just never said anything.
I love the gospel of Jesus Christ, I love being a missionary. I am so grateful for His infinite Atonement, capable of curing any illness, spiritual, emotional, and physical.
COM MUITO AMOR AND SMILES,